I have been trying to get over this whole "Evil mother-in-law" thing... and it is harder then I ever imagined. The hard thing isn't dealing with her neglet for others feelings, or working through her hatred for me. The hard thing is that my fiance won't stand up for me, and won't acknowledge that his mother has it out for me. While I understand you need to respect your elders... and parents and etc. I do not understand how you could just let someone say hurtful and hateful things about you future wife.
She is on facebook, and deletes her own son from her friends list ... just whenever she gets upset, or frustrated at him. God knows I want to stand up to her and just tell her how hurtful she is being towards her son, but that would only cause more of a backlash and more slander towards me. I am trying to listen to the sermons at church, and listen to what others have to say. "Kill her with kindness", "pray for her", "ignore it". I am trying, but she is making it so hard.
Yesterday I signed her mothers day card. "I hope you have a great day!", that's what I put. I don't though, and I feel so fake even writing this to her. I just don't understand why she is putting her son through this. He feels so torn between the two of us. It is almost as if she is competing for his love. As if, we can not both love him in our equally yet different ways. I have to admit, I post comments on his facebook page like, I love you so much, I can't wait till we are married. Which is true!! I absolutely can't wait till we are married, I love him very much and he has been my best friend for almost 10 years. However, I can't help on some level hope she reads it and gets mad. I hope she sees it and thinks... ahhhh... he loves her, he is still going to marry her. I just feel sometimes like she is trying to sabatoge our marriage to be.
She deleted me off of his father's facebook page... lol... yes she has her ex-husbands facebook page password. Anyway, she deleted me off and has started this weird friendship with the girl my fiance was with before ... a while ago, but still it was his last serious relationship. This is the same girl that we were with behind her back. I almost think that his mother is mad at me for this as well. I know that she feels that they should have been married, but my fiance has dated plenty of girls since his last serious girlfriend and they have been seperated for about 4 or 5 years now. I can't help but vent about this. I feel like it is perhaps taking over my daily thoughts.
I am determined to let this go though, I need to start studying my bible more, and listening in bible study about forgiving our enemies, and loving those who can not love us. I really want to be that person. I want to be good, and holy, and in Gods own image. It is just so hard.
Ok, so starting today I am going to try to let this go. I need a bible scripture to go by....
Mark 11:25 (New International Version)
25)And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."
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